Hey there!
Hi, I’m Mindy. I’m a single mother of two who gives it her all to be the best she can be, it’s a one day at a time process.
“Learn to value yourself, Wich means to fight for your happiness. “
– Ayn Rand
I am 29 years old. Unless my self to believe if I didn’t allow myself to find love and happiness I couldn’t get hurt. Wich soon only grew into me constantly selling my self short.
I will write about how I got where I am today. Also will blog certain keywords that I’ve struggled with and what they mean to me!
From the blog
- Why won’t you answer my prayersAll my life ive don’t nothing but good deeds for anyone in need. It could be someone who really hurt me or done me wrong, i have a heart of gold I really do. If your my enemies and your hungry I’ll feed you. If you cold I’ll give you my coat I’ll give youContinue reading “Why won’t you answer my prayers”
- Watch “Lily Rose – Stronger Than I Am” on YouTube
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- Worthy Are You, Our Lord and GodWorthy is God our Father, who is faithful from everlasting to everlasting. His dominion will never fail. His mercies are sure and His grace He has freely given. Wonderful is He who reigns on high, for there is no other god besides our God. “Worthy are you, our Lord and God, to receive glory andContinue reading “Worthy Are You, Our Lord and God”
- HapinessWe choose our emotions reacher we realize it or not. It’s the choices and decisions that makes up our emotions I guess. What I don’t understand is that I don’t want to feel sad as n do torn apart anymore. If only you understand is how bad I want hapiness. How do I change it.Continue reading “Hapiness”
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- Holiday = my severe anxiety and depressionAs I’ve spent theses past 3 months trying to find who I am exaccally again. I soon realized that after something’s broken it can never go all the way back to the point u were at before. I say that only because you are not that same person anymore but u are not the personContinue reading “Holiday = my severe anxiety and depression”
- What does unconditional love really mean to you?To love some one unconditionally is to love somebody without any conditions to it no strings attached. It is to love someone freely.When you love someone unconditionally it will never matter what they do because you will still have that same amount of love for them and there happiness will always be your hapiness.
- It’s all really about mind control … Mind over matterIf it was only that easy most would say. But I’m hear to tell you it’s only as hard as we make it. Who choose are mindset? Not our parents not our best friend and not even God. We choose what state of mind we are going to be in. We choose reacher to beContinue reading “It’s all really about mind control … Mind over matter”
- (no title)I just keep finding my mind wander tonight everywhere, I just can’t stay focused. The plain simple fact that I can’t stay focused I just want to breakdown and cry . I hate the fact that I can’t seem to make good decisions Wich caused me to get robbed. I am really hating this seasonContinue reading
- Beautiful disasterI would never want to make someone feel the way I have for about 6 weeks. I have a heart and when it aches like this the pain completely fameges my heart my mind and soul. I damage anything I touch. I waste any chance at happiness I get and I become the only thingContinue reading “Beautiful disaster”
- I guess even the less fortunate have a purpose.Luck that’s not my style I’ve never been lucky. I’ve been blessed with a loving family and blessed with two beautiful baby girls. I can’t believe you can get butterflies still at almost 30. I’ve always hated the fact of opening my guard and letting someone in I guess mabey it was just a fearContinue reading “I guess even the less fortunate have a purpose.”
- Watch “Forest Blakk – If You Love Her (Lyrics)” on YouTube
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- Motivation to not giving upMy children are my light they are the only ones who care if I’m happy or sad., Dead or alive, present or absent. I live for there happiness when told ” mommy I thought you were gone. Mommy I thought you forgot about me that I didn’t love me anymore” that brought out the worstContinue reading “Motivation to not giving up”
- Strengths and weaknesses how I began to turn all my weeknesses to my best strengthsFirstly and most importantly I identified my strengths before i considered what my weaknesses could be. I wondered on what has always came easy to me I. Life and what I struggled with the most. The things that i choose to be a failure in and why and the things I choose to succeed andContinue reading “Strengths and weaknesses how I began to turn all my weeknesses to my best strengths”
- To fall for me is to set urself up for missorryDon’t fall Inlove with meDon’t fall in love with me.There are days when I get sad without a reason and I just stare at the ceiling with tears streaming down my face. Don’t fall in love with me.On those days, I don’t talk to anyone. I just bury myself in my bed and think aboutContinue reading “To fall for me is to set urself up for missorry”
- Random thoughtsThe type of weather I usually bring is a hurricane possibly a twister weather. Most run with fear of that weather that they run until they can’t run anymore. Once that guru and touches the surface it destroys what’s it becomes in contact with. Think about it!! That’s reality its true. Definitely that’sContinue reading “Random thoughts”
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What is love?
This a a question myself and many others may ask there selves daily.
How do we know what is love? I believe if it happens and we fall in love our hearts will no.
What love is to me? It's something that two people work hard to build without loosing there commitment or faith.
Things won’t always be great. Your partner may do things that will make you angry, but if you are willing to not look at it as obstacles, but rather as opportunities for growth, then you are truly in love.”
In my opinion there are many steps to keeping your true love
1. Security
A. Love is having partner ship, having a companionship and a best friend
2.trust
3. Give and take
A. Completely opening your feelings and sharing them with your significant other.
B.keep in mi d that in order for it to work it must be mutual.
4.respect
A. “To me, a healthy relationship is built on respect for one another. Each person understands the commitment they are making to the other person.
5.being in synch
A. Being in agreement
B. Meet halfway, finding solutions
6.commitment
A.The key to success in a healthy relationship with someone is actually the terrifying but necessary effort of commitment. Being there for someone is what a real relationship needs. When we neglect to put in the effort is when things don’t work out with someone that could have been perfect for us.
7.growing together
A. To teach each other as life goes on
Equally water the garden so. Your carrots all grow together instead of separately
8.vulnerbility
9.heakthy communication
A. If something's wrong your partner can't work on a solution if they aren't aware that there's a problem.
B. Honesty when communicating
10.equilty
A. Everybody takes play
B. 50/50
C. Teamwork
11. Patience
A. To be patient to be kind
. Good things don't happend over night and great things take times.
12. Acceptance
A. To always know and not forget nobody is better than the next we have flaws.
B. Accept the fact that we won't always like everything about a person
13. Forgive and forget
A. We're only human we make mistakes and we learn from the.
Let go and move on
14. Loyalty
A. To be faithful
B. To be honest
C to not cheat to always have eachother back
Finally to me love means ride or die and no other way and mabey someday I'll mean that much to someone.
Posting new tips every week
About Me
Im a warrior, also a single mother. I struggle daily to overcome my illnesses. Addiction is real and so is chronic anxiety and depression.im also a survivor of 6 years repeated domestic violence. I survived I got out not all make it out . Afterwards I got weak, I felt hopeless and sad Wich is when my vulnerability could no longer fight addiction I began to let it win az it slowly took over me and my life.
In with the next year I have several goals and there is no other option other than completion!
- Let sobriety take over my lifestyle. To not forget I know I have atleast one more relapses but let’s be honest do I have one more recovery.
- To realize that there are good n bad things about myself but it doesn’t mean it’s ok to self hate.
- Remember if I don’t live myself I can’t live anyone else. Take one-day at a time and by February be stable enough for the girls to return home to there mommy.
- Keep all appointment
- Whenn I feel week reach out for help
- Get a steady job
- A house stable living environment
- Organized schedule
- Keep all appointments
- Live a happy healthy safely life with my girls and stay sober
Trying to be be the best I can be 